I BOMBED IT..So What!

So it is getting down to the wire. The exams are routine, the studying monotonous and the expectations never met. BUT..at this point, what can you do but truck through, cross your fingers and take one day at a time.

TWENTY THREE DAYS UNTIL I CAN BREATHE but getting grades back after finals will be another story and another post.

Why make tests soooo hard and ask questions in the most difficult way for the simplest answer? Why you options that I have never heard of? Why make easy to read notes but hard to read tests? Excuse me, PA schoool, you don't make sense. Maybe test the same way as you teach...oh wait, I taught myself how to read EKGs, treat arrhythmias and listen to murmurs.

in the meantime, I will take exams and try to forget the best way possible...Go out with my ladies!

Friday night schmidaynight

update! PA SURVIVAL-- fun thing I learned today. If you boil an egg and put it in a bag of raw vegetables ( I was in a hurry and didn't have time to get bfast or a normal snack), when it is snack time, the boiled egg creates heat in the baggie that semi warm/steams your veggies!!! What a pleasant surprise today at snack time. :)

Cheers to losing a bet.

Rumor is we will all survive this bad nightmare and feel accomplished after feeling like failures throughout the program. At the end of it all, I think I will be most sad that I met all these people and didn't have time to really get to know them because of time limitation. But for now, we will have our once a month outings to cheers after a test in which half of us are too tired to get excited to go but once we are out it's like trying to tame a fat kid in a pool of chocolate.

Another week has passed and another Friday in front of the books. Surprise surprise. The sad part is, in reality how much studying am I getting on a Friday night. My brain is fried from studying all week, my mental status is drained from the rollercoaster of grades (anxiety when you get the email saying grades will be distributed THEN the anxiety of opening the stupid paper= ahhh). At this point in the game I will have to say everyone is numb. Numb to the magnitude of information, numb to the endless list of expectations and numb to the walk to the SAME class everyday.

The center of my sanity and studies

Another downside..being in a room with all freakin smart people. Got to keep in mind that everyone was chosen to be in the program because of their street cred. It is 3 months into the first semester with 34 days until the end of finals. Hostility in the classroom is rising due to everyone's brainwaves getting overcharged and conducted at the same rate. Today, there was a heated discussion over taking off 0.1 pts for errors on peer review... REALLY?! let me know when you remember that you got 0.1 pts off for indenting wrong a year from now. And if so..get laid. (pardon me but for reals). No point arguing your grade. Do your best and learn the material and learn from your mistakes.

On a happy note, my mail ordered bf comes tomorrow just in time for grocery shopping :)

nerd

Best pick up line:

"You have a pterygium?!"

" I have a pinguecula!"--Erica

Things that excite a PA student.

surviving

I AM ALIVE!!!!

Worst two weeks thus far!!! and it SHOULD be calmer until Finals but that is just prepping for finals!!!!

Last week we had Adultmedicine and Pharmacology exams.

This week it was Physical assesment, POPQUIZ in pharm (YES, POP QUIZ..not cool right? esp when we JUST had an exam), peds quiz/structure and fxn exam, adult med quiz and pathophysiiology exam.

I thought to myself, if I can mentally handle this round of exams I will be ok..and if I can pass all my exams that would be even better!!! SO FAR, so good!!! I am treading for my life but I am still alive. It's all about being alive and healthy, right?! Check and check..except the gym is calling my name. A bad mentality to have while studying is, I "deserve" this frappacino and I hit an all time low when it was time to bust out the blue box because my fridge consists of eggs, wine, and a tube of yogurt.

Surviving does not mean it wasn't a battle. There were tears shed, white flags coming out and interventions. All in all---this was not a solo effort. PA school makes you crazy, it makes you crazy with some other crazies (who will cry, yell at you and with you) and makes you a crazy girlfriend. Solution to the last part, your bf lives across the country so he doesn't see what you eat for meals and  the structure of a mountain range on your forehead.

Cheers to my new friends, I owe them drinks because they have more faith in me than I do myself!

Don't beat yourself up for the ones you get wrong, reward yourself for the ones you got right.

Gotta be confident like this guy. So much swag

Christmas, where are you?!

Christmas has a whole new meaning now. It is not only the birth of Christ, the day Santa squeezes down a smoke pipe, or a consumer holiday. It will be a time that I can smile again, I can enjoy a cup a coffee (instead of trying to inject it in for my effects), and I can workout again. Oh, Christmas can you come any earlier? People ask me, what happened to Thanksgiving? Well, Thanksgiving is ruined by the back to back exams I have when I get back.

Thank you, PA school for taking away the day I should be thankful...instead I will regret having big dreams..dreams of a PA.

Lesson: lower your standards.

Yup, just another blog before another exam. Welcome, to the worst week thus far. 3 exams, 2 quizzes and another exam next week.